#096 - 26/04/26 12:43
on a like 6 hour drive rn ripppp. went to go see a uni and i think i have my unis figured out now yay!
a while back i went to a con by myself for the first time (a small one dw) and i had SUCH a good time :DDD ended up talking to a buchhh of people and shared pizza with a random person it was just so good. got my coursework all handed in now yay!! well around about. everyone at the uni who did computer science was flabergasted when i said i just finished mine they all handed their ins mon ths ago ToT. been making steady progress on max, i bought a bunch of light grey felt for wheatley but i need to fix the sphere calculator again ughhh.. during easter break so much time at my friends house and it was so fun :)) ive been meaning to make a miniblof for so long and just kept not doing so i dont rememebr too much of whats been going on sighh.. i went to a zine fest at some point which was cool :]]

#095 - 04/03/26 00:18
I GOT MAX DONE (enough) TO SUBMIT A PICTURE :D!!1! i dont expect to win anything cuz he is incrediably scuffed but i am proud of myself for managing to get it done at all :) turns out that everything needed to be hand sewn which i ofc did not have the tife for so all the stitches were basically like basting stitches, and evenything was just pinned down or taped to the head TwT. i cut a couple huge holes into the foam + fabric so im praying once i properly sew up the head fabric that lines up :') ehile at a sleepover at a friends i hand sewed the edges of the darts hoping i could machine the rest but for the life of me i cant get it to line up </3 the ears look good but they are SO HEAVY im really not sure how to properly attach them (industrial strength velcro?) cuz i really wan them to be detachable so i can travel with him at all. i didnt bether properly finishing the dress and just tacked on some ribbon tie at my neck for the staps. i also make some little paper poker chips and stuff relating to the other characters :). subbmitted an hour late but i still got a confirmation email so i believe that maybe theres a chance it will be seen <3 stayed up like 30 hours straight lol . my sleep schedual has been HORRENDOUS i sleep for likr 4 hours do what i need to do then nap then sleep for ages so im just tired all the time :P. oh yeah mocks have started. i am COOKEDDDD. had my first today and it went so bad. and i have nto revised for my one tommorow. but it will go fine right guys haha right .? and ofc i havent done hw. or finsihed my coursework. but cosplaysss :3333. I made max's head base witht eh foam stuck together then carved a big ol hole in the bottom, them (partially cuz i didnt heat shape it enought) i covered it in batting to pad it :) really annoying to glue in place since you can feel thr lumos of glue but eh it is much cheaper than upholstry foam . i made the ears with 2 layers of upholstry foam with a layer of eva foam between, which i carved a groove into and hot glued some wire into (wish i did it on both sides >_> , the wire cant support its weight) glue and carving the uphostry foam was so nice though in comparison, i can see why all the furries have carpal tunnel though my hand was so tired after like 10 mins. really makes me wanna work on a fursuit head (still need to finsish the head form tho..)
just now ive decided to finially getting around to using the blank keychain my friend gave me and put some art fo v1 and the mane 6 in it :D! i think i spend nearly 3 hours gettinh my printer to work. i have no idea how it is working but im not complaining at this point. yayy it is my birthday soon and i actually organised having a bunch of people ^^!!! turns out when u ask your friends to hangout they dont say'why would you ask that i ahte you die' but now i have the issue of how much food do i need for 15 poeple .. i will go to lidl and get many frozen pizzas and probably cut up some cucumber and carrot and junk

#094 - 22/02/26 01:00
oh wow i forgot to ever say - for the poker night release there is a like art competition and i want to so badly submit my max cosplay for it.. problem is is that the dead line is fiveee days away.. luckily im on school break rn but i do have exams as soon as it get back :')) i have the main body of the dress all sewn up :D!! still need to tack down the facings, make the straps and take it in (how is evry piece of clothing i make for myself always way too big??) and i have most of his head glued! however i WISH i properly checked the pattern because the 2 halves do not fit together. at all. ive been trimming and hacking away at it but im worried ive flown too close to the sun icarus style and chopped off too much.should have just slept on it ugh. praying i can just slap glue on and it'll hold. then batting will save me surely TwT i dont even knwo if my head will fit in it at this point but i am praying !! still need to figure out how to ears will work as well... many many step to go and not a whole lot of time (gah im busy 26th and 27th as well ... rahhhhh) i dont except to win anything but its a nice deadline to work to
ive dyed my hair properly blue and i love it so much :)) 7yo me on the sims 3 giving myself dip dyed blue hair is so happy , every time i look in the mirror or see the blue ends i start jumping for joy :D
finished off a skirt today that i started FOREVERRRR ago. pretty much the simplest thing ever : square circle skirt with a gathered exposed waist band, the edges are barely finished with a zigzag stitch. anddd i somehow made it too losse, luckily that can be sorted with a couple saftey pins whihc makes it more cool and alt actually (my sewing machine did NOT like sewing on elastic i just had to sit watching it skip every single stitch trying not to rage quit) . spend a whole day searching for the black elatic i knew i had which of course mean i also half did a lot of reorganising during that process. kinds making a bigger mess but thats. fine and okaya
ive also been listening to sm audio dramas again! saw one on tumblr called the redacted unit , the characetrs are SOO good but the premise feels kinda flawed..? ur coworker at ur spooky ghost job is acting completely different and ur not immediately thinking ohhh shit thats not my coworker thats probably a ghost. maybe i would just be too paranoid in this universe but like how are they all not . oh well lucas 5eva . also been rereading/catching up on a bunch of webcomics! (inhibit, the greenhouse, dark zone, countdown to countdown and muted (if anyone has reccommendation PLEASEEE email /message me :DD))
also sphere calculator doesnt work rip ToT i think i already said that on updates but damn that is so sad. also shit i need to do so much work on my coursework oh shit is is due by the end of the weeek.. but cosplayyy comes first <3 (bad life advice)
i wanna work on max so bad rn but i know i need to sleep else ill probably mess things up.. sighh. omg its also my birthday soon woah. i wanna organise hanging out w my friends but sigh i feel like now its too short notice and im worried abt friendship politics between all the people i know .and haivng people at ur house is scary.. I BELIEVE IN MYSELF!! to get this done. i wanna play dialtown rn i might do that

#093 - 05/02/26 01:03
im so excitied i keep .fcuking growling at my laptop I NEED TO SLEEP But teeeheeheeeee pokerrrrrRAHHHHH

#092 - 05/02/26 00:48
HOLY SHIT POKER NIGHT AT THE INVENTORY REMASTER IN 1 (ONE) MONTH I AM SO FREAKING HYPED!!!1! rahhh right as im into sam and max and tf2 (and thought of trying to get into homestar runner :] but i dont really understand it (i also read like 2 pages of penny arcade. not much to say theres its like fine)) RAHHH RAHHHH jumping around rn i need to sleep but RAHHHHHHHH also i glued up like 1/4 of the seams yay! RAHHHHHHHHH

#091 - 04/02/26 20:51
depressions been pretty bad so my memorys not been geat :') yk how it is. saw the markiplier movie (aka iron lung) with my friends a few days ago :D!! it was SO GOOD!! legit best video game movie i have seen, and i have seen many (not a high bar but) the blood was ooo and the filming was ooooao .. a very flawed film but it was nce seeing a film in cinemas that was actually GOOD and not in an ironic way.. oooo oooo. also went to a little (tiny little) concert over the weekend :D! meant to go with a friend but the ticktes had sold out </3it was a teeny little room but i really enjoyed the bands :)!
one of my friends has a new fursona so i have been drawing her lots and lots <3 also had a few sleepovers! was one of my pals birthdays so we decorated a beatiful cake 0:) uhh what else has happen in ma life . i cleaned a lot of dust out of a fan that was nearly the same age as me and it was very satisfying , still not tidied my room tho lol
im finally working on the manaquin head again!! did some little bits of embroidery but forcing myself to stop cuz i will never be done with it otherwise x_x need to glue up the edges so they dont fray as much hopefully, then sew the base and a zip :)! i was gonna have some sorta hole in the bottom so a pole could be put in it but with how heavy its probably gonna be i dont think thers a point. i also just spend a lot of money on upholstry foam which will be an awkward conversation with my parents when that arrives but OHWELL!! think of the craftssss.. the craftsssss

#090 - 14/01/26 10:21
Finally dyed my hair!! It didn’t really take and since I didn’t bleach it it’s more teal than blue but I still like it.
Got all the pieces of max dress cut out ..which my dog then peed on :’) washed it but since it’s bias cut I’m betting it will be very warped, hopefully not irreparably. Also tried finishing the edges but I’m guessing since bias cut+ polyester satin it really didn’t like it! so I got some pinking shears :D! They were so expensive lord.. oh yeah and I’ve applied for university hell yeah (it’s hard to get myself to look into all the stuff I need for uni since I’m probably gonna have to defer if my adhd stuff takes longer than a year.. :') I’ve also been watching house md and I’m going INSANE.. might make a page for it honestly cuz I know I will annoy the shit out of my friends who told me to watch it . oh ya and the pieces of mac head have now been heatshaped :D! Just gotta sand the edges again so the glue sticks and well gotta glue them, wanted to do it a few days ago but it was snowing (epic :D) and very wet and cold (not epic )

#089 - 01/01/26 01:24
happy new year!! first miniblog of it! my alone new years has been very chill :) call n messaged some friends, been cosy round the fire n playing sam n max with some hot chocolate! finally finished chapter 1, seeing as its meant to be a 10 hour games with 6 chapters and i spent 5 on the first one, im in for a ride :p also ate some tasty af spring rolls. im so groen up now in the new year i unloaded and loaded the dishwasher out of free will! id like to get some of the dress done tonight, turns out im not sure how to actually mark the fabric, as chalk doesnt seem to show up, peobably gonna do my classic biro pen . its polyester it probabllly wont stain. i also trimmed up the foam! i was hoping to sand it today and im not sure how i thought that was gonna happen considering i get vey self conscious about doing it with others in the house and the sun sets at 4pm, with me waking up. at 4pm.. oh well tommorows another day! gonna spend more time lying around just listening to the sam n max ost i think, maybe play some more of it if im not too tired and eye strained ^^!

#088 - 31/12/25 07:14
may have just bought all the sam and max ost on a whim. and a bunch of steam games uhh. ill say its the money i saved by buying a crimper second hand.. (ive been thinking of getting one for agess and the one i was looking at was like 30 quid >_> then i looked it up on vinted and there were so many listings for the same crimper for 5 pounds, people do not use crimers in the big year of 2025 (nearly 2026!)) anyways all the music is like 10gb combined and its allll going on my mp3 player immediately <3 god its so freaking good and it has brass instruments and i love brass!!! oh yeah i printed out a pic of a luger to use as a template, and holding the realistic 2d image in my hands im thinking like.. that is so funny. if i want to go to a con as max and it turns out i couldnt get it finished in time i will 100% print out a picture of that gun and stick it to some cardboard. in the games it is cartoonish but i really wanna make it realistic cuz i find that funny. like a gmod model or something lmao . and its pretty realistic in the comic!! i enjoy it in comparison to sams huge gun thats larger than max himself lol oh god this is a full blown hyperfixation isnt it

#087 - 31/12/25 03:15
happy New Year’s Eve :D! Got the foam for max cut out before hangin out w a couple la friends and I have just now finished the dress pattern :)! For the foam I have to trim it, sand it , heat shape it, then sand the edges again so hopefully I can get that done tmmr but considering it took me like 4 hours of procrastination to the patternnnn -.- .. hopefully the dress won’t be too bad! I’ve only patterned the front but the back and facings (fancy) are kinda the same thing so I’m probably not gonna bother. Adapting the tutorial I was following was annoying cuz it was only 1/4" seam allowance cuz the person was serging and sewing it at the same time , but that was also combined with the ease - I changed it to 2 and am hoping that is enough to sew it together and zig zag the edges TwT also I have no idea how to use a french curve I probably should have looked that up but o h well measure once cut twice lol . School is less than a week away and that fact makes me want to die but it’s okay I can ignore all my homework and just make cosplays it’s okay . Oh yeah I’ve been thinking abt max’s ears and I feel like they should def be detachable but I have really no idea how that mechanism could work - maybe just shoving them in will hold them..? My Eva foam ain’t tock so I feel like it won’t be able to support any crazy structures

#086 - 29/12/25 02:26
wanted to get a lot done today which, of course, did not happen TwT" made the paper mockup of max's head, the shape im not 100% happy with but i can fit my head in it and honestly thats all i care about, proabably gonna pad him out with some batting anyway, and i can live wigh it, got out the materials to draft the drsss pattern, then was too cold and ive somehow managed to lose my 1 metre steel ruler?? so thats gonna be a big barrier for me, took me forever to do the paper pattern cuz i couldnt ifnd the roll of paper infront of my face (i have so much scrap bit fo apepr i have no idea what to with now, big enough to probably be used for stuff but no idea what so theyre probably gonna sit on my floor). hanging out with a friend tmmr and was thinking "great i can just got o sleep at 12 and have a bunch of time in the morning!". welll here we are.. and i gotta shower cuz im a bit nasty rn >_> hopefully will be able to get the hardware for the spaghetti straps n maybe something for the pink of his nose n ears, we'll see :) i keep progressivly rememebring how much school work i need to do but its. a future promlem (hi to me in the future and im sorry for what you have to cram in a day and proabably still not do). its an awkward period between chrimas and new years cuz ts some of the only time i have ff but only half the stuff is open, and you never know if its just for the holiday days themself or a few days around it lol

#085 - 28/12/25 02:37
bleh woken up after only 4 hours, but not tired enough to go to sleep TwT. Hung out with some friends today which was fun :3 Christmas is over so all the diy baubles and stuff are on sale so u know i got some, gonna wait like week till all the wrapping paper is being sold for pennies then I will buy so much for patterning :p I also got fabric for max !! Got some very polyester satin red fabric for the dress and this nice cream velvet fabric, I normally don’t really like velvet but it is very soft, and I am glad I got it over fleece like I originally planned (.tho it was more expensive.10 quid a metre ToT (1.5m wide so not the worse) got 2 metres of the satin and 1.5 of the velvet so im hoping that’s enough ! still need to get hardware for the dress straps and some pink fabric for the inside of his ears but I can probably use some stuff I already own . Oh yeah I don’t think I’ve actually said what my plan for max is. I wanna make 3 peices: his head, his luger and a slip dress. His heads gonna be eva foam covered in the velvet (funny this is technically my first fursuit head lol), with his mouth open, the black is gonna be some mesh (aka my only vision and ventilation ">_>) and im probably gonna paint the teeth paint? Or maybe use felt or something. The Luger is just gonna be foam carved glues n painted, and I’ve been thinking I could use the diamond texture from the foam mats for the wood part of the pistol. Loveee to put my my men in dresses and what I’m planning to make is a bias cut slip dress :D! found a tutorial online and it looks really easy to pattern. the material is probably gonna be a nightmare to work with but uh slow and steady wins the race. and I want to make spaghetti straps oh god (one of the stupider decidesions im making cuz i generally can’t wear stuff with straps cuz my shoulders are too domed so they just slide off :P (shoulder bags r my biggest opps) . Still gotta make that paper version of the head waaa. I also need to figure out the ears, my thin Eva foam is high density so it stands up on its own pretty well, but if I’m going off the games more than the comics they’re gonna have to be longgg and they are kinda think I think so maybe I’ll have to go with my cheap floor matt stuff? but I don’t really like working w it. oh ya and my friend for me some new craft knives yippee :]] I also haven’t really thought about how I’m gonna attach the ears to the rest of the head..? Maybe like having it bend at the bottom and lodging it in there, maybe I could use sm velcro or some thing . ooo and I gotta make a tail , and I hope the pile direction isn’t an issue of max’s head really cuz I’m probably gonna use a similar slices pattern for the velvet as the foam. also had a nice convo with the person at the fabric shop :) I felt rlly bad cuz it was close to closing time and it was a boyes so more of a chain shop but she didn’t seem to mind ! Also got some new universal needles machine at a diff fabric shop :] I need to sort out having a sharps container cuz I’ve got in the habit of putting old needles back in the box.. so then I don’t know which ones are dull.. (sadly I cherish my containers too much to ever use them TwT)

#084 - 26/12/25 18:54
got the pattern scanned, (badly) drawn and printed :) i should def make a paper version before wasting foam and i willl but ughhhhhh i ont wannaaa. its also rlly annoying that its winter cuz i wake up ver late but the sun goes to sleep very early so i cant rlly work putside easily </3

#083 - 26/12/25 02:39
chrismas yayyy :]] epic food n some family time, i got a new phone w/ a shitton of storage which i am so thankful for cuz my old one was screaming at me :D my dad also gave me some shitty conservative book :[.. like idk if he actually expects me to read it but like what do i even do with that?? i think donating it to a charty shop would count as spreading hate speech.. kindling i suppose? anyway I FINISHED THE PIN BANNER & THE COASTERS :DDDDD!!! n my sib/mam seemed to like em :] took some photos before gifting so hopefully can get around to adding them to the sewin page. feels weird not having something im working on after spending 3 straight sewing. so ive decided to start a max from sam n max cosplay! im already accepting the fact im not gonnna be able to see shit and have not figured out any vision holes except having the mouth be mesh, n even then ill only be able to like see my feet lol. i have made a pattern tho :D!! good ol tinfoil and masking tape, and luckily since his head is just an ovoid so i can print out 1/8th and copy that. gotta wait till tmmr to scan and scale it sadly. should probably plan out the mouth and head hole before printing everything out and cutting it and whathaveyou but.. thats just a future es problem :p
the other day made some house md ginger bread houses and it was such a good time, you rlly go fucking insane while making them cuz it is so hard.

Went go karting today, it was very fun but I am very slow at it :P. Also started a patchwork project as a gift!! it’s a little pin like banner thing. Any fabric colour scheme I could think off seemed too distracting so the patchwork is just there for ~texture~ but god why did I decide to use such small triangle for something you can’t even rlly see TwT patchwork eats up so much fabric as well, gotta add an extra inch of fabric for 90 degree triangles and I kept getting my maths wrong but it seems to have worked itself out! also started practicing driving in my sibs car and it kinda sucks ass (sorry if ur reading this :'3) it’s hard moving to a dif car when you’ve only driven one.
schools finished for wintah n I have a meal w a couple friends to celebrate :D! I ate a whole pizza , was also doing a secret Santa but I was way over ambitious and procrastinated too much so even after staying up for hours I only got half finished , then slept through the gift exchange - I still feel so bad abt it unu.PLEASE LEAVE SO MUCH TIME FOR EMBROIDERY. IT WILL TAKE 10 TIMES LONGER THAN YOU THINK . My secret Santa got me a pair of stork embroidery scissors I love them sm :D
also played dsaf 1 and a little bit of 2 a while ago, they have aged ..a lot but I still enjoy them , I never really saw past dsaf 1 and seeing how wild the fandom is and was I really wanna know what’s going on in 3. Also joined my friends cool modded minecraft sever w pokemon n stuff :D I am so bad at video games (started playing dbd and I am SO SHIT at it the noveltys wearing off a little cuz I just don’t know what’s going on im just running out) . Also went to a Christmas party w some other pals and it was very fun, was meant to go to another one today that was loads of ppl from the scare acting job but ngl I could not be arsed
omg yeah I haven’t been on here in so long just remembered I watched the fnaf 2 movie w my friend at the cinema and it kinda ruined my mind for a couple weeks, wtaf was that . Like I haven’t watched the first one so that probably explains a lot of the differences but mike and micheal?? vanessa??? Wtf did they do to Charlie??? Also I wanna make a Funtime friend cosplay and a marionette and also a minireena doll, went down a bjd rabbit hole trying to just find a guide in how ball joins work but there was no info on just that, it was all “how to carve face and body” and whatever and it like that is awesome for you but litteraly how does a ball joint work . Oh ya also my drama club is now over </3 went to some dnd thing but sadly everyone there was much younger than me
oh ya steam is working and im in my friends steam family so there was likea week where i just played webfishing :3 its such a cosy game and got some good music reccomendations fromthere !!

#081 - 23/11/25 05:50
WHY WONT STEAM OPEN UGHHHHHHHHH got dbd to play w a friend (horrorfying) and when i wanna try install it the client breaks and apparently im the only person on the internet w the specific problem im having, and i dont wanna figure out how to make a github bug report i just wanna play videos game TwT

#080 - 23/11/25 02:41
work finished!! as of like a month ago lol whoops, they did actually pay me surprisingly!! got my kaneko mostlyyy done was working right up till the deadline of my frinds part, nothing is hemmed and theres a hole in one of the arm pits and i have still not sorted that, at the goodbye staff party i wore her and it was fun but i did feel every out of place in my bright stupid ass anime cosplay that i did not have the mental fortitude to explain what it was to anyone who asked, in s room of ppl dressedas like vampires and stuff lol
got some patchwork rulers!! they were cheap so the lines r rlly thick and i dont really trust that theyre accurate but oh well, the first thing ive tried patchworking is of course thick streatchy fluffy fabric that i cant really iron, so good choise on my part, got some nice fabric cuz i wanna make coasters as gifts for ppl :), also got fabric to make the (gulp) pleated skirt for my firned, fabric is all washed and ironed i just gotta figure out how to cut stright lines lol (good luck to her cuz its cotten and it was an actual pain to iron and it will crease easily, oh well!)
got exams like next week and of course i have not revised, been doing worse in exams this year cuz i just have not been doing homework, so things r looking like theyre gonna be good results wise. depressions kinda been kicking my ass but whats so annoying is i just cant open up to ppl when im actually struggling ,nearly all my teachers were like "are you okay" and all i can manage is a "yeah :)". I AM WASTING GOOD EXCUSES HERE!! whyyy. my coursework coding been good, the writing not so much obvs, handed in one of my sections knowing full well ive only worked on it a coupe hours (the equivalent of 20 minutes in regular people work) . oh well
been reading addiction by design cuz i finally looked up a pdf, couldnt find an epub sadly so its teeny tiny on my kindle, also downloaded a bunch a bunch of i forgot the word but open source books that i havent looked at yet lol. oh yeah went to visit my sister over a weekend and to see a uni, and the car broke down less than half way there so we had to send the night in a random city lmao. uni looked good even tho we missed like half the open day lol. at the rate im going i dont think ill be getting the grades to get in there, got my mam to buy me sm revion cards in the hope itll get me to do anything but turns out theyre the style where its like 20 exams questions crammed onto a single card which is sad cuz idk if ill actually use them. will try tho cuz god i dont know any theory

#079 - 28/10/25 00:07
work kinda sucks but at least time is starting to go way quicker on shifts, i have a partner in my section now which is good, he is stressing me out cuz he loves clibing and pulling on shit and like bro our maze is made of rottting lolypop sticks and loose nails pls calm it down :') got grabbed a few times which was unpleasent indeed. i wish people wouold remember we are people and not props aka stop molesting my coworkers please. please
in lighter news i have finished kanekos ears i just need to get them on the headband then hopefully i can get myself to make the dress in the next 24 hours ready for a friends party, gonna have to get the bus there whihc is annoying so gonna be walking around town with a wig on that very hurts my head :p
im at work most of this half term so wont have time to get much hobby stuff never mind homework, and i did not do any homework last week i was just coding my nea (and i should be doing the writing part anyway!!) told my teacheres id try get caught up on work over the holiday but we all know that is simply not happening, i have 3 days off, one of whicj i have just wasted and im not gonna use the other 2 doing homework when theres friends i havent had a chance to hang out with in weeks cuz of work, at least im finished after this week TwT gonna finally stop procrastinating and untangle my hair and wash all the fake blood and makeup from it oh ya like a week ago tried to cut it into some coppy layers and they definetly.. were...not too noticabke tho and im happy i did it i see the choppy ends and its like hell yeah i finally customised my avatar B3 also thinking abt snake bites... dont even have my ears pierced but sigghhhh theyre so cool ,bit scared abt the damage to teeth tho but i talked to a guy at work whos had them for like 20 years and apparently its no a big issue since u get them flat back once theyre healed

#078 - 14/10/25 23:24
gonna just chuck down everything i can remember happening in memory lol
got a kindle :DD its like a gen 4 it cant even connect to the amazon store and doesnt have a backlight buttt i got it for like 15 quid off vinted and all i wanted to do was read the.. copies.. of i prefer the villianess light novel i found on archive.org !! i have read 1 & 2 and they pretty good! they story wraps up so neatly by the end of 2 i dont know how there are 3 more books??? also went to a convention!!!! met a cool tessa cosplayer n got her discor B]]] i wanna cosplay uzi now ughhhh !! it was my first like comic con and not just anime con but ngl it was just anime with a tardis and some of the older ppl cosplaying like doctor who n lotr and stuff lol was hoping it would be my chance to meet another chelly but fate didnt have that in store </3 i also watched all of nyan neko sugar girs recently and it did something terrible to my mind.. i am currently making a kaneko chan cosplay TwT i got my first ever wid (i was like holy shit this is so long and heavy and realised my own hair is like the same length possibly longer how tf does my neck support all that..) within 2 seconds of wearing it i could feel the pain but oh well. currently making the ears, i made a little pattern out of some card and then just some eva foam heat shaped! i sewed the fur very shoddily but i cant be arsed to fix it and dont rlly wanna waste it so hopefully itll fit lol. ive already got a tail i made a couple years ago thats the right colour, again not well made (the zip in it is back to front lol..) buttt itll just match the reference art more :^) kinda wanna make a little cat raku chan but that might be a bit too much work. the only other thing i need is the ugly green dress which i wanna try make myself and a fabric shop near my has the perfect shartruse jersy but i have work on the days i can go there TwT so gonna have to just wake up early af ig.. (also rip it gonna be more expensive than buying one but its a way to practice anddd it does not have to look good at all lol) also WORK!! i am preperly in the swing of my scare acting! lowkey sucks! the pay isnt bad for my age but everyone is paid that ammount and it is under adult minimum wage :') also the mroe i find out about the workplace the more and more dodgey it is .. also my role is boring and i hope my maze shuts again so i can move !! (sigh just think of the money you'll be paid... hopefully...)
oh ya i finally watched all of the owl house!! its so gooddddd and i also watched haunted hotel and it is pretty good, animation is kinda ugly but oh well its a netflix adult animatited show lol. also similing friends season 3 :)!! gonna doa little watch party at web club <3 (very websites i know)

#077 - 22/09/25 00:15
KNIGHTS OF GUINEVIER OR WHATEVER IS SO FUCKING GOOOD !!!! inave rewatched rhe pilot like 20 million tikes... dont know how i feel abt the voice acting at times but its def good . almsot finished the manaquinne headform thing :33 lost my freaking nose tho so im gonna have to remake that..
soent a buncha money on the murder drones graphic novel fgulp.. 136 pages doesnt really sound pike a lot to me but ... i see mufderdrones and my heart flutters .. also bought a cheap second hand ereader off vinted cuz i wanna read i prefer the villianess light novels but ugh reading on ym phone sucks.. hoping i can jailbreak it and do some cool stuff on it but its also liek a kingle gen 4 so have very little storage and doesnt have ads (or even functionality with amazon) from my understanding so i might not have to bother that much
uhhh school sucks but thats expected , bunch of teacher changes and a bunch of my friends are no longer in my classes TwT
got the book Thirst by marina yuszcuzuk and im like halfway through and its pretty good
omg yeah i got a ouppy :]]] she is so cute but she bites my ankles so freaking much, try to do the thing where you make a high pitch bouse which tells them oof owch im in pain so they stop but she doesnt realise mosty the time/i do it too low :p

#076 - 27/08/25 07:15
I HAVE FINISHED THE CIRCLE SKIRT WAHOOOO :DDDD!!! waists a lil big but whoo careeee. also life hack i figured out but def didnt invent: if you dont have a zipper foot perch the presser foot on the zipper teeth and stick some card on the other side 2 balance it and you can get realll close (i got a bit too close at points so it couldnt actualy open lol) . i have cut out all the interfacing for the manaquin thing and washed the fabric :)) (make sure to wash second hand fabric yall it looked clean but the water was brown lmao (also oml i am senitmental or whatever the word is, all the hems (it was curtains) were hand whipped stiched and i was like aw man i cant use this soneone hand sitched them!! (i will use))). oh ya fuckreform uk ppl put up laods of england flags rlly high up on the lampposts near me (and all over the rest of england it sounds like) and they are Pissing me off. saw some gross anti immagration banners. they r Gone now 0:). i started embroidering pyros embles at a craft n chat thing (reccomned) it was basically all old ladies so a lot were like "oh what are you making?? :-)" "a ..patch.. for a ..costume :)" satin stiching takes so long i worked on it an hour and i hald and am maybe 1/3rd done. of 2. also holy shit light boards are SO useful i think i got mine from likelidl and it has been such a saviour for many things. nearly had another shift at work but everything was very mixed up and it was v obvious i did nto have the shift but my family was like nooo go anway even tho the place was so far. i worked like 10 mins then the actual person came in i waas like i am fine leaving dw guys (let me out) .. i did cry honestly not too sure why i think i was embrassed. sad tho cuz i was rllly getting into the flow of like writing on boxes, i honestly think i could work well in like a factory if only you were allowed music

#075 - 16/08/25 22:35
just watched the new tadc ep and AAAA AAA A AAAAAA A A A A A AAAAA
had a sleepover which was good, got embroidery thread for pyro and a rotary cutter :3333 on a long asf car jouney tomorrow abd oh god . have put nightvale and some more lemon dmeon on my mp3 player11! i am so busy next week deary me TwT

#074 - 15/08/25 01:11
did my first ever shift of work the other day!! good in that there wasnt much to do but also bad that there wasnt much to do cuz it was just standing for many many hours straight bored out my mind TwT i think i was techinically working an illegal ammount of hours for my age but uhh at least it was adult minimum wage and not under 18 minimum wage.! theres another shift but i said no to it cuz i have plans with a friend and mam was getting reallllly on my case about it sayin stufflike "think of the money youre missing out on" "job comes first but maybe thats just me" i have seen very few people this summer holiday and i wanna hang out w people TwT
cut out the last of the cool fabric parts of the skirt, regret zigzaging that one piece cuz it has warped it but maybe the others'll match>

#073 - 11/08/25 23:20
got the fabric today :D zigzaged the cool favric now just need to do thw white then i can wash them , hopefully theyll be drh for tmmr! it was so feeaking warm when i got home i ate and then just fell asleep =w= ugh i need to shower.. also need to start doing my scholl work like yesterday but as soon as i think about it i would like to jump o7

#072 - 11/08/25 00:27
was home along most of today so sang a whole bunch and it was v fun ^^ prewashed the black strecthy fabric i wanna use for a skirt in the fututre and worked on the rythm heaven circle skirt!! (thsts just what im gonna call it now) drawing the pattern took a while cuz circle and a bunch of kinda annoyin maths. got 2/3 pieces cut but the third wouldnt fit which was very annoying cuz i just have 2 giant chunks of fabric thta the pattern doesnt fit on =w=. i guess thats pattern matching for ya. also cuz the back pieces are now on the bias they are strangee to match. gonna have to go back to the fabric place tmmr which is annoying cuz the bus takes so long but i need to get some white for the waist band and pockets so oh well (at this point i could just use the same fabric for it but i have the idea in my head) maybe i can use the left overs for a matching bag or something cute like that. another bag to my to do list TwT !! could have made a full circle skirt this whole time damn
hung with a newish friend the other day and it was alright, they def seemed to be more hyped to be friends than me as awful as that is to say but what can you do. got this demin colour plush/minky type fabric i wasnt expecting to find, could definately use that for beewee ehehehe. OH YA i forgot to say the other day but i got a murder droness hoodie :DDD its the cyn callback ping one and it is SO FREAKING COOl !!!! its got like prints on the arms and a little embroidery, the print on the back is kinda blurry whick is a shame but ohhh the strings are so cool and aaaaaa. it was. much much money but i did get it on saleee . also got some new deoderant which smeells crazy good, cuz i got a bunch of wild deoderant but now that company has been sold to unilever i just found out =_=.. thebrand i got was fussy and not sure how good it is but it basically fits the cases. also got some like body soap bars which im kinda regreting cuz they dont smel the best and bunch of my skin is sensitive and soap bars are usually kinda dry buttttt life is about trying new things!!! what i find funny is that these type of deoderants and soaps always have subsciption services attached to them so by the time youve used up the stuff you get more. and it probably says something about me that it takes me about 10x longer to get through the products than they say it will. i ahve eaten 4 eggs today you boil em for 6 minutes and then stick em in some ice water and have a little pot of soy sauce + rice wine vinegar and spoon a bittle in with each bite. delichous :)

#071 - 09/08/25 01:35
OH YA forgot to say ive finally been working on the robe thing!! kinda wish i had just traced a hoodie i already have but sadly there is a demon in my head always whispering "...you shoudl try pattern that yourself...." and sadly i listen to it. lots of meaauring and maths to end up with something that doesnt really fit =w=" got too focued on making it like form fitting so its not really a hoodie at all :p. luckily i bothered to make a mockup cuz that first one was straight up a binder x_x should have figure out sleeves before making it out of the actual fabric cuz the holes are like too small even tho my arms can go through them without sleeves fine so i think i dont under stand sleeves. at least the lower half is just going to ba a gethered skirt!! and luckily i have enough restraint to not try do a circle skirt

#070 - 08/08/25 23:28
waaa havent been on here in SO long TwT sewing is my current hobby so webcrafting is kinda on the back burner </3 i have so many webring applications its a little overwhelming . ANYWAY I FINSIHED THE BAG MY SIB COMMISHED ME FOR!!! i flat felled all my seams and tho its kinda messy and there were many bumps on the road i am so happy with how it came out :))) put a pocket and a little d ring on the inside and my seams are sooo nice. kinda. i think i messed up a couple calculations cuz when i lined up the side pieces there was like an extra couple centremeters but what can you do. i learned a fair bit from my first bag and hand sewed right next to thed-ring so they wouldnt slip around cuz i dont have a zipper foot to get close enough! a bit problem with my bag is that the corner of the d ring will slide up wearing away at the strap nd making it all misaligned . i have taken many photos so i can show one of the ppl that works at my local fabric shop it ehehehe
got my templete for pyros axe printed out and it feels a little small but i can cope with it, gonna cut it out of foam and try putting in the (heavily cut down) dowel into it! though i honestly dont think itll need it. went to every fabric shop near me looking for the right blu and at the last one i looked i found it. but it was a lott thinner and the texture not as nice >_>. so im saving my money! jk i found this gorgeous cotton that looks straight outta rythm heaven so i bouyght that and now i rlly wanna make a 3/4 circle skirt out of it :)))) i would make a full one but i dont think i got enough fabric :( also gonna try making it zip up cuz i dont think i got enough fabric for an elastic one. i am def gonna add pockets!! a big challemge i think im gonna have is doing pattern maching for the first time!! with the physics off it it is gonna have to be missaligned at 1 seam (if my mind shapes are correct) which i think ill have as the back one, since with the zip itll probably look a little janky anyway. i got some white b ias binding to try use for the hem since hemming circle skirts is apparently rather annoying! i got single fols which i dont think was right since i want the binding visible but ill make it workkkk. i wanna make the pockets and waistline white as well so its all matchy :))
oh ya the other day i was helping out my friend face painting at a little local festival where we were doing little performance and i experienced my first ever Cèilidh and it was SO GOOD!! loved dancing till you feel like ur gonna fall over !! sadly that weedend there were a few drunk dads that were kinda pervy to me :(( but the rest of it was good !!
i really need to start doing school work at this point but WAAAAA i dont wanna. oh ya ive been plaining a bunhchhhh of cult of the lamb that game is fire and now i wann acosplay the lamb :') oh and ive finnally been making progress on my head form thing!! got all the pieces cut out and starting to trace them onto interfacing!! i can already tell sewing it is gonna be a nightmare and will probably require a lot of hand sewing TwT
im making it sound like ive been very productive but what ive been doing in my spare time is just cutting up old socks and scraps of thread n fabric to use as stuffing for the head form lol. i think i have like 2-3 litres of it which willl probably not be enough but the less poly fill i have to use, the more money im saving lol. since i dont think this is gonna look super nice however it turns out im just gonna use some curtains i bought from a charity shop as the fabric. hopefully it being heavy weight upholstry fabric is a good thing...? ages and ages ago i bought some bvery pretty fabric to use for the project (back when the mostivation was i wanted to make a fursuit head and those ed head things are expensiveeee (still wanna make one but for now, pyrooo!!!!!)) but i dontt wanna waste it lol

#069 - 20/07/25 20:29
(hehe nice) fesival was good and i am now on holiday ANYWAY i have just finished watching all of my adventures with superman and it is SO FREAKING GOOD the music and animation haaaaa . went to a pride thing the other day and it was fun :). started working on blu pyro, got my friend to cover my head in cilngfilm and masking tape so i now have something to use as a pattern to make a head form, which im realiseing is gonna be a lottt of work TwT decided im gonna make their fire axe. had work experience earlier this week wed-friday. PLOT TWIST IT WAS ACTUALLY MONDAY TO WEDNESDAY so i messed up real bad and missed the first 2 days so not too sure what im gonna do about that, ig just do a virtual work experience. met some very posh people, like i thought i was kinda middle class but oml this one girl making fun of a guy for going to private school and turns out she went on first class flights on emerates and shit??? she was like "ehh turkish airlines is better than emarates" and we just stared at her. oh ya at the pride thing i was given a random pride flag whichhh had a big ol dowel in it!! and i am gonna use that as a core for pyros axe i think :)) figuring out the size of it will be annoying but oh well, the dowel is like a metre llong and i definately wont need all that

#068 - 05/07/25 00:12
bouta be in for one of the most taxing weeks ive had in a while TwT helping out with a fesitval tommorrow then travelling a very long way to go to a concert for an artist im not really bothered about, then a very long coach and im right at school :')) its the last week of school at least but my maths teacher has decided to give me supervised hw time for every bit of free time i have TwT like yeah i probably wont do the holiday work but I DONT CARE DONT PUT ME IN THERE UGHHHHHH. anyway bought fabric for the blu pyro cosplay i wanna make and i have been prewashing that :D so much dye has come out. it will definately be a tough project but kinda practice before making a chell :D the fabric wasss expensive cuz i wanted fully cotton (1. to try dip dying 2. cuz if im gonna make clothes why would i use plastic fabric). i gave awaysome stickersss
anyway THE CON!!
day 1 i was chell and me n a couple friends found another con goer on the bus and just stole him for the day :p sadly i did find out my talent show appilcation didnt send?? but im kinda glad cuz i did not wanna get up super early on sunday. i mostly just went around the traders and artist alley :) saw an artist i follow on tumblr which is pretty cool
day 2 i was gabriel and most just wandered around, i got a very cool tf2 print (the only tf2 art at the entire con TwT) and a pic with an epic cyn cosplayer :DD i went to the furmeet and was like wahoo i have cat ears for gabriel howver i did feel kinda out of place and not super epic cuz it kinda felt like people were there with friends and i also was obviously not in fursuit. sadly i did nto follow the "have an actual meal rule" so did have a wobble when i was by myself ans spent a bunch of time in the quiet room being darka and mysterious and also hungry. i drew loads of anya mouthwashings cuz there were so many at the last con i went to but sadly there was only one on that day and i couldnt catch them in time to give them a sticker. however ! that may have been for the best because aparently they were doing a couples cosplay with JIMMY MOUTHWASHING???? which if you know mouthwashing that is INSANE BEHAVIOUR???? anyway i ate a lovely greggs with my pals whihc was great. there were a fair few homestucks so i could give stickers away and i got many a trinket :DD also i am so hyped to have a cosplay with pockets because oh my god have a plushie, helmet and dexteritry-eliminating gloves on makes things suckkkk. oh yeah also the glue didnt fully set and i was huffing that shit when i put the helmet on
day 3 i was chell again and there were actually a bunch of tf2s there :D!!! there was a little impromtu meet up where i sadly did feel a bit out of place but i was at least a fellow orange boxxer (also everyone was wayyolder than me TwT old fandom i suppose. why couldnt i just be into genshin or smmt) got a couple pins, one for my friend :) there were a bunch of henrys and i gave the kim sticker i made to one of them and then they got caught in an escalator oof. anyway the people loveeeeee wheatley, my chell cosplay isnt super obvious, being kidna ordinary clothes and all so my shitty paper mache brings allll the portal fans to the yard. sadly no other portal cosplayers around tho u_u
anyway i really enjoyed it :DDD thought it would be way bigger from how my friend described but it was definately maagable :) in my head i was thinking itd be like those huge american ones but thankfully no lol, i dont knwo if i could live through one of those (ig the place is so big they can just fit so many giant convention centres)

#067 - 02/07/25 16:14
THE CON WAS SO GOOD!! i also got gabriel finished and i will probably write more about that later!!

#066 - 26/06/25 01:34
Yesterday I went on a huge ssearch for magnets which turned out to be one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Went to about 5 different hardware shops eventually settled for using the shitty bendy type magnets from a cheap kids craft kit. Up to now I have got all the face prices glued (except the like. halo ring balding monk thing) and it’s all sanded, except I made cat ears (detachable, that’s what the magnets are for :) ) so I’ve had to fill that in with foam clay which is now drying (told myself I’d be finished and just painting now. I have no time left at all oh god). The other glove is sewn I need to still hand sew the fingers and stuff tho >_> also sewed up neatly all the body suit (made a turtle neck n stuff ^^) then tried it on and where the crotch is meant to be is down to my knees :'^) currently unpicking that as im typing and gonna resew soon i can really feel the end in sight even if I don’t quite get finished it time :D
also had my first driving test today!! As soon as I sat in the drivers seat I started crying and apparently that is not a common thing. I don’t know what it is about cars that scares me so much. I can be in a buses trains and hell even planes with few worries but when I’m even just a passenger in a car it’s like ohh god this is where I die. Even moreso when you’re in the driver seat cuz it’s like oh god im gonna kill someone . How do people drive!!! Apparently I am good at gently pressing the pedals which I think is cuz of all the machining I’ve been doing :p

#065 - 22/06/25 10:03
currently visiting my sisterr (first time taking a domestic flight woah!) just had a crazy 2 day heat wave that was AWFUL hopefully its cooled off today. currently tring to write a work experience email and oh god why cnat it just be "please let me work here ? :)"
i put this site as a reason why im a consistant worker (lmao) if they want to see the site i am BONED. saying that as if anyones gonna reply lmao i defknetly left this all too late TwT.
Drew some homestcukie stickers last night should have used fineliners instead of my sharpie they have all melted into a blob (rest in piece karkat) but oh welll its funny i havent even gotton to the part of the story where all these are introduced

#064 - 19/06/25 21:06
got helmet base fully glued + filled int he seams with foam clay and sanded :) (i honestly think it looked better before but.. oh well) just gotta figure out the front peice and cross ^^. went to a NIN concert the other day which was SO COOOL!! all the flashing lights and stuff woag <3 also the first time ive realy listened to their music lol
it was unfortate timing with my life unfortunatly i had an exam the next day so had to get the train very early TwT. that exam went a lottt better than my first tho. felt so ill in the first hour so i missed a bunch of questions :(( its maths which ive also done really little hw for and theyre probably gonna be like thats why you did bad!! nooo well probably a bit but also i was so overstimulated the whole time. one last exam to go!!and the con so soon waaaa (and im visiting my sister in the next couple days ughhh i wish it was like. a week later)

#063 - 13/06/25 23:03
Got the base helmet fully glued :D!! got the 2 halves done yesterday and joined them today :]] I definitely did too many separate pieces that could have been together cuz there are so many seams I need to cover up
I managed to survive my exams yesterday they really weren’t too bad, I am fairly scared for the actual mocks. had a bit of a cry this morning going into school, I think I’m just stressed about the ammount of stuff going on this month that I am doing :')

#062 - 12/06/25 00:34
glued some of the helmet peices :] didnt go the worst but the seams r ugly. i have so many exams i have not revised for i am not doing well lmao

#061 - 10/06/25 02:09
fully finsihed the skirt and handed it off to my friend, i am very happy with it and she is as well so wahoo !! :DDD!! wahoo!!!
finally started sewing the body suit rn, honestly witht he nightmare that is 4 way stretch and with the very little time i have i will be happy if this thing just fits and stays on my body, only got half a sleeve done but thats more than ive had in the past like month lol
my sib gave me money to wake them a bag and there gonna have to be waiting a hottt minute for me to start that :') i am SO FREAKING BUSY WHYYYYY
oh ya went to a couple friends birthdays over the weekend :]] it was very fun but my body hurts in ways i do not appreciate (from like what? doing a small amount of physical activity what the flip)
got some chem practical thing all day tmmr and it should probably be well rested for that.. uhhhhhhhh.. cosplay prevales!! i also made some more stickers whihc i am happy with :) wahoo hobbies!! boooo exams (they are so close oh god)

#060 - 04/06/25 01:09
THE SKIRT IS BASICALLY FINISHED????? AA
still to to check how to fits on my friend before fully closing the waistband and sewing on the buttons but aaaa omg. im not too happy with how the waistband turned out but everything else is :]] got the little side bit down and i thought it would look kinda stupid with the way ive done things but it surprising doesnt :] might make a page on here for sewing and put a picture there when its fully done and dusted but haaa feels so good to finsih smmt. now for my own cosplay ! :')
its crazy i prewashed the fabric almost exactly a month ago (3rd may) but i have been properly working on this for a coupke full days and thats when the real progress has happened, but all the small steps r important too! oh ya BIG sewing tip is to IRON LITTERALY EVERYTHING. a hem looks kinda weird? after ironing it will look like a piss of resistance <3

#059 - 01/06/25 21:06
aaa i have finally put a bunch of the pieces togetehr and it is really looking like a skirt now i a so happy TwT currently working on the weird drape thing it is a litttle sad its covering up a bunch of my epic layers but i know (hope) it will be so cool. i also finally been working on some of my own cosplay ! i sanded all the gabriel helmet peices (wont lie they looked better before doing that..) and i heat sealed/shaped them :D my dad wanted to supervise me lol which lasted for for all of 5 minutes but now i have my bendly little helmet bits :)) might order sealent now i still need to get the contact adhesive from my sibling sighhh... i hate age restrictions what am i gonna do? get cancer from using weird glues? .probably
also yesterday i watched the emporers new groove and it is so good i love all the expressions of the characters!! been watching a bunch of classic films that i never saw as a kid recently, like lilo and stitch a few days ago which is also very good (no money going to disney lol dw)

#058 - 01/06/25 03:54
FINISHED RUFFLING !! :D the good thing about this project is cuz im repeating so many steps im not just doing something once going "oof that came out badly and so is terrible" im doing it 5 times over then going wahoo :D improvement :D!! aa just need to join together those bits, then sew together the sections, then figure out the draping n waistband and im done AAAA con is approaching and i have done very little work on my own cosplay but i do want to get this finished first so i dont have to worry about machine calibrating and stuff when switching between projects i am hoping to get the sanding done tmmr if weather and people being around will permit it :) today i also went into town w a friend to get some hardware and paint and stuff and it was fun ^^ i alsoooo bought a bunch of fabric cuz i have been plagued by the idea of making a wizard robe... the more i think of it what im picturing is more of a monk robe but i also wanna make a hood ad stuff so homefullt it will be cool :] when i get my other projects done ehe.. thwe fabric isnt very good quality but for 4.99 quid a metre AND it being folded over?? 6m^2 of fabric for 14.99 is a steal (especially compaired with the skirt fabric.. 7 quid a metre squared is roughhhh) but oh well :)) sewing is so fun aaaa
also i love buying fabric from small businesses its like oo what are you working on and im like ohhhh a skirt :)) and theyre like ohhh cool you can have this extra small piece of fabric bundled in here its so fun. had to get the hardware from a larger shop which is a shame but what can you do (i also just hate buying fabric and whatever online)
oof yeah not only is con approaching but also mocks. everytime i remeber this fact it is not a fun time in my mind (re: the easy way out) but honestly it is fully at the bottom of my mind palace i do notttt give a gaf all that matters is my projects. i have also not done any homework that is duee uhhh monday :)

#057 - 31/05/25 00:03
back homeeee been negleting webcrafting a bit sewing is my lifeeee. got basically all the kanaya pieces cut out, and hemmed all the ruffle sectionssections (glad i did the bag practice +using tape guide made things so much easier) + have made a connector piece with pockets B) one thing i did not expect to be so hard was ruffling O_O it takes SO long to sew the 2 threads then if one of them snaps it takes even longer to remove them x_x. coming back home my cat was so clingy TwT when i wasnt in my room she come downstares and start meowing for me TTwTT and she is NOT a meower

#056 - 24/05/25 16:04
on holiday!! kinda wish i still at home to work on cosplays but what can you do :') found out one of my friends is also into tf2 which is epic!!

#055 - 19/05/25 3:00
oh ya i also have v1 and v2 now B) god i am become christmas is so good how have i slept on this for years

#054 - 19/05/25 02:05
WAA havent updated my sitein forever but i have been busy sewing :DD!! the kanaya horns r funny sanded and primes just gotta give them to my friend and shes gonna paint them and everything wahoo :)) i bought fabric for kanaya skirt a bit ago and so far i have only cut out the ruffle pecies (i have hemmed one! ..of five) did a mm shoddy job tbh gotta cut out the conector picees n waistband then ill be in sewing business. for gabriel ive been thinking of making a bag (cuz ive experienced weiring tote bag and backpack and tote bag is annoying to wear but easy to access, backback is easy to wear but annoying to access) and today i just. did that???!!! bought some ribbon and d rings n stuff but the fabric i already had (2 quid bed sheet from a charity shop B)) the fabric gave me much trouble and i wont lie there were many tears (i think my sewing machine is also just shit) but i made it i actually did it :DD!! yesterday feels so long ago (o ya i hung out with a friend n she wants to start sewing so im planning on giving her a bunch of my extra sewing stuff lol) cuz i did the whole thing in one day im so proud of myself, its the first nonfurry sewing thing ive actually finished. it does show (so many of the stitches are actually APPAULING (heh miss pauling)) but i finished seams properly felling them and homefully it will actually survive being used !! its a pllain white kinda tote back but with actual width and i used a nice glode ribbion that goes over onto my other shoulder (not adjustable and probably not structurally sound (i also sewed it wrong so its technically a morbius strip ) but who cares it pretty and gold like gabriel :) (aaa i need to sand all the helmet piecies, turns out im dumb so all the left and right pieces are just left x_X)) going on holiday later this week which is very sad cuz i wanted to use half term to work mroe on stuff :(( after finishing the bag i was just strutting with it happy stimming finishing things is actually so epic . a,so goin g to a very hot country which sucks balls cuz i hate the sun and ill actually be expected to go outside and whatever crap >:| first world problem but it is my problem </3 #myproblem i have exams coming up and i do not care all thats in my head is like con crunch and wanted to get these projects done :p thank u lemon demon for supporting me on my bag journey my cat has been so loney alone on my room :( sorry cat ur boy has thing to make shittily !!

#053 - 06/05/25 01:20
offically just finished severence holij shit

#052 - 26/04/25 19:02
just got the second kanaya horn glued so i just need to carve it :) yesterday i actually made proper food for dinner (a delectable fishfinger sandwich) also dyes fabric! i was hoping for a bright red but turns out dying poly cotton with dye meant for pure cotton makes colurs much lighter, its like the exact shade of the azumanaga diaoh uniform shirts tho so yay i can use the fabric for that :D! i also did nto wear gloves so my hands stained very red. had a wobble and a bit of a spiral abt going back to school but had a long chat w a friend so i was alright :] also managed to geta bit of hw done today huzzah!!

#051 - 25/04/25 02:41
had a very dookie moment a few hours ago with school comin up and stuf hurrghhhh mockd and shit and homework i dont waanna do that!! anyway been making same kanaya homestuck horns 4 my friend :) i have the first 1 cut and carved, need to do the second one then sand them + paint!! i rlly wanna try make her skirt but idk if that would be weird of me

#050 - 24/04/25 04:10
had a sleepover, played somemore disco elysium, i now have homestuck on my computer and also GABRIEL ULTRAKILL PLUSH IS HERE RAHHHHHH (ugh i kindawanna get v1&v2 aswell but i should rlly save my money,, but also.. v1 and v2...)

#049 - 20/04/25 22:45
happy easter!! (aka mr beaster) had family friends over and they brought their dog and no one thought about how they would introduce it to my dog !! so they just brought it into the house aka her terratory so ofc she was pissed and lunged at him when she could. i was mad at them but ofc could not show it so i just had to be like "yeah that was done badly : ) ..." she just had to be shut in my parents room i felt so bad </3 she got lots of treats tho. i got 2 eggs and eaten half of both and my tummy hurts. its not very good chocolate sadly
gabriel v2 has been taped together and cut :)!! it actually fits this time so yay!! i havent given much thought to houw to stick both sides together and honestly im just uhhh . gonna make it out of foam and hope for the best cuz the paper pattern is kind impossible to work with. oh ya i got my foam like a few days ago and it seems pretty good !! i have not unrolled it yet cuz it REEEKSSS glad i bought foam clay cuz i am gonna have to slather that thing once i finally make it. finally fully watched through the boby suit tutorial im planning on usuing. it doesnt seem the worst hopefully..? hopping the patter will work with having a chest but ig just fingers crossed. i am NOT doing a whole tape pattern of my bodys

#048 - 16/04/25 15:18
my ttummmy hurtss :(

#047 - 14/04/25 23:03
kinda dawning on me how much i gotta do for tha gabriel x_x finally printed and put together the helmet pattern and it was tooo small TwT so probabaly gonna just increase the size by 1.5 or something then reprint (and its 40p per a3 at the library.. rippp) it looks the same shape as my head when looking at it but putting on (which was a giant struggle) showed that is nott the case. live and learn! didnt get anymore sewing done today but hey its like .. still a few months till the con and ive got 2 weeks off school :) i need to get a respiratir and stuff ughh
i think i might start like a Blog blog.. mostly just so i can try making an rss feed but also for longer form more structured thoughts unlike this place :p

#046 - 12/04/25 02:05
finally making progress on gabriel, ive made a lil tape pattern of the helmet which i scanned, traces over with vectors and scales, hoping it works out and isnt too inaccurate cuz it takes up 2 a3 pages, which is gonna be kinda expensive to print out :') (assuming i can print in a3 at the library ',:\) also SCHOOL BREAK FINALLY OH MY GOD

#045 - 11/04/25 04:49
blehh school is killing me.. thank god the term is nearly over!! there is so much homeowkr ghat i have no idea how im gonna get done (spoiler: i probably wont) all ive been doijf the past few days is go to school, get home and go to sleep, then wake up and go to school -w-. beey annoying when i actually have to do shit(eg paint minions on eggs. which my mam wanted me to do yesterday. ehich i then did at 4am cuz i randomly wole up then )

#044 - 06/04/25 21:05
got disco elysium :DD!!! bought it in a cheap one of them charity bundle so for a fiver i got that and 2 other games (so zaum gets as little money as i can give without just pirating cuz fuck zaum). it is SO GOOD the art and everything is mwah!
ive played for about 10 hours and have just finished the first day, i have 1 achievment and it is the one for being a communist, i am going for yaoi community build harry, sadly i missed out on being a feminist though..
ive barely beaten any of the game and i want to do another run with just max half light and bite and kill. im worried im not really gonna finish it cuz it is a LOT of reading/listening, dont think im really getting the full effect of a lot of lines and stuff cuz its hard for me to focus :( (maybe playing 10 hours across 2 days has something to do with that...)
Something have less of an impact on me than i feel they should like with the frequent reference to suicide like idk thats what my internal monologue is like too, but more of it, guess i havent been the place where im super geninly worried i cant trust myself though. anyways good game so far :] oh ya might get like kicked out of school as well. oops!

#043 - 02/04/25 22:29
pet my cat for like an hour . school and everything still sucks but maybe life is okay. i love her so much

#042 - 02/04/25 21:29
was doing a lot better now im randomly worse. getting bad thought at like 8/9pm sucks like i cant even blame myself for staying up too late. im good when im talking with people or with friends but then boom. just dont want to put any effort into anything, cant even really be open about what is actually going through my mind for fear of worrying people or getting my parents called on me.
been sortig out my shrine table for the bast few days and it is looking very nice
went on a hike w/ my sister yesterday but is part of the reason im especially behind on hw this week which roabably part of the whole mental darkness lol
how am i mean to do this then uni then work and whatever else. i just dont get it

#041 - 25/03/25 19:55
been doing worse. not sure why i cant think of anything thats set it off. maybe a period is approaching. things in general life are good, got some fabric for gabriel cosplay over the weekend and kinda reconciled with someone i fell out with a year ago. cant tell if its cuz ive been busy every weekend for the past like month and i just need to rot in bed for a day. not fun. cant really talk to anyone abt it 'all i want to do is hit my head against a wall and thats basically what i do when alone' is a bit too dramatic for me. just randomly start crying during the day lol and i dont have any motivation. im fine when talking with ppl but then as soon as i am alone its not fun up in my brain. i dont even have counselling anymore and i dont wanna talk with the person i check in with now. sigh gotta make it to like june at least.
also y is eva foam so expensive.. and the shipping ough.. then i need to actually make the thing . ough

#040 - 19/03/25 15:56
i have made minesweeper in java :D!!! its all in the console so its a bit awful to play but ohhh well :) took me many hours and its a mess but i managed to use recursion B)

#039 - 18/03/25 20:00
went to a con over the weekend and it WAS SO GOOD!! it was a very small one (gotta have been like 100 people there, i think i saw every person while wandering around -w-). bought a couple prints (half life and tf2!)
i cosplayed chell and i made a beautiful paper mache wheatley!! (i made him the night before. i do not recoment doing that i was doing it fron 4am to 4am :') ) im so glad i had him cuz last con people were like "ur chell.. right?" but with the boy people are like "OMG WHEATLEY!" i should put some pics of him on here. the shoes i ave for chell r geniunely awful to walk in i trip over everyrhing and i got blisters waaa :'))
one thing i will say was annoying abt the con was that there was nooooot much giong on . tbf it was probably the numbers and the fact the con was 1 hall and 1 room but there was maybe 1 thing happening an hour if that, when like at my last con there was like 3 things going on in an hour. luckily for my i find wandering aroun a hall looking at the same stalls very enriching B) also having 1 big hall rather than a bunch of smaler rooms is SO much better.
went with my friend and things were a big awkward for them cuz people kept assuming they made their cosplay when they uh bought it TwT. going to regular shops is awkward and nervewracking but also it is fun to just go buy a tesco meal deal as wei wuxian and chell lol.
it is SO LONG UNTIL THE NEXT CON UGH. but i know a bunchhh of ppl going :D made a group chat and everything :3 i am a little nervous as i have only ever done small 1 day cons and this one is 3 days and very busy but yknow what i believe!! the post con longing is so real i want to go back to being a freak wahhhh

#038 - 09/03/25 10:13
wahhh got an audition today i am shitting myself TwT oh twas my bday the other day :) i got some lego n money B)

#037 - 05/03/25 03:12
also fell over walking to school.. that sucked
second time i have done that
my knee hurts :(

#036 - 05/03/25 01:22
had to do 3 and a half straight hours of maths today and had a big old cry about that (i just. was not given any breaks .when i should have been)
got an audition to ne a scare actor coming up which i am very nervous about
i also have a convention soon which i am very excitited for :D goodbyeeee all my money helllooo prints of stuff i like. got some new trousers for chell cosplay cuz i do NOT wanna do a con in too trousers again that was awful. and guess what. THEY WERE TOO SMALL AGAIN. maybe i just dont know my size when it comes to clothes made out of non stretchy fabric... got new ones again fingers crossed they come in time !! wah i do need to try sew my own as wellll,,,
top 3 characters i would like to cosplay: chell portal, pyro tf2, gabriel ultrakill (in order from silent to most mouthy)

#035 - 28/02/25 12:25
currently planning a fanfic.. (chell x miss pauling) how does only ONE of these exist.. i have only written once before and it was like 100 words (i also just generally hate wiriting).. currently i have 100 words worth of bullet points. saw a fanart that inspired me much. i hoenstly dont read much fanfiction; the style of writing i enjoy is very specific snd the way the creatures spin around in my head is even more specfiic..
also trying to plan a gabirel cosplay :) got a bit of a battern for tha helmet really dont know how to work with foam and mine is SO thick but if you dont try with shit materials no point in doing it with expensive materials,, also spent loads of money on ultrakill stuff but i dotn wanna talk about it

#034 - 27/02/25 12:25
started playing psobb last night :) had to do a fair bit of fiddling to get it working but wasnt that bad (i thought it just wasnt working cuz i had to download it to the c drive not the z drive) ginded for like 4 hours and at level like 23 now :')

#033 - 24/02/25 21:27
THE BIG ULTRAKILL REVAMP UPDATE IT OUT:DDDD was worries about things being different because things being different is yucky but this shit looks soooooo good :DDDDDDDD my shrine no longer looks like the terminals which is a rip cuz i just finished that but oh well </3

#032 - 21/02/25 21:25
FIRST P RANK IN ULTRAKILL YEAHHH AND ON STANDARS YEAHHH AND IT WAS LAYNER 1 NOT PRELUDE :DD huzzah yipeee!! i am a gamer!!

#031 - 15/02/25 20:53
ok uh yeah cant use php on neocities and i dont wanna host files elsewhere so. javascript with a bit of <noscript> it is probably!! there is vivivi.leprd.space's no js webring tutorial but that requires Netlify which i dont really wanna use TwT prolly just gonna use onion ring

#030 - 15/02/25 20:29
Finally working on a portal webring which ive been wanting to do for ages :D got a little icon thing cooked up and currently trying to figure out how it all works (using baccyflap.com's php webring (hopefully) i dont really like how most webrings require javascript in order to work or show up, i dont know much about php though sadly so im not sure if ill be able to egt it to work (maybe ill just add a noscript like "this site is part of the aperture webring!" with a link or something)

#029 - 14/02/25 22:43
Yayyy finished making my friends art portfolio site!!!

#028 - 01/02/25 03:59
goodbye january! the brain rotis too much guys i meant to do hw today at school and instead drew ultrakill for 3 hours. worth it tbh. madesome new friends i think?? (/ gone from aquaintences to friends) i need to stop giving my tumblr to irl people but oh well. it was a very and open first real conversation i brought up being a furry pretty imediatly and infodumped about ulrakill which was very nice as my main friends dont have much interest in listening it feels like. exams results r back and i did pretty okay, a bit silly to say but it is a bit odd getting used to not being a yop scorer and that but thats what happens when apathy is like haiiii and you dont revise or do homework. i want to cosplay gabriel now ough. up to act 3 but i havent actually started it cuz i am SHITTING Myself thinking abt the mannaquines. idr if ive said this before but the difficultly scale is so weird for me lol, took me 20 tries to beat the level before gabriel 2, then it took me about 3 tries to actually beat him. (i kinda cheesed it tho i was frustrated by that point from the prev bits lol) makes me with you could replay levels on higher difficulty without having to redo all them but oh well. i think the lord has cursed me for loving so many things with robots in them but not being good at drawing robots. also omg yeah ultrakill has gotten me back into drawing after not doing it for like straight up a year TwT .
smmt ive been feeling in fandom space (mostly w/ tf2 a bit with ultrakill) is how much more u have to dig for content when you care little for shipping (aroace moment i suppose~) like scrolling though art and its just ppl kissing, ppl kissing, someones whole everything out and about, more ppl doing couple stuff and like sigh do u not just have the squiggles rotate around in ur head idk. i can forgive it more with v1 and gabriel when its like oh yeah stabbing and killing but actual couple stuff i am so disinterested in it is very sad . ineed more yuri and lesbians in my life but idk where to find them

#027 - 29/01/25 03:55
basically finished the programming of my friends site and might i say i have cooked! really delaying going to sleep rn i dont want to and i dont wanna go back to school waaaaaaaa

#026 - 28/01/25 09:13
note to self: dont wear headphones to anything involving hearing. they litteraly just see that you have them and go "oh! thats why ur having problems silly!" ¬_¬ . it took me so much will power to make that appt and UGH . for some reason for half of the thing she was just asking me about how my relationship to my family members was . at least im getting a hearing test eventually hopefully.

#025 - 27/01/25 23:55
finally finished my book today, would reccoment i enjoyed it a lot. Been making a website for my friends art portfolio and i have been doing many new things tht i think have been going quite well ^^!! might try implement some of the stuff into my own gallery page if i ever get around to sorting it out. Bought some webbing as well which i can hopefully use for pyro cosplay (im still gonna have to buy a bunch of hardware and stuff blehhh). i have many ideas but also little energy and too high standards for making cosplay.. so i make nothing B) . i have so much homework but my ultrakill hyperfixation has been too strong for me to even perceve the fact i have a school to go back to. i just live in my mindpalace i dont need 2 think abt any of that
bleh got an appt tmmr omg i forgot my whittling stuff is finally here :D

#024 - 26/01/25 04:23
been hesitant to add stuff here cuz im like "what about all the other stuff i havent talked about that i was gonnnnaa" and "i dont have much to say" forgetting that like thats the ENTIRE point of this page is that i can write whatever and it isnt as stressful as like an actual blog ',:/
ANYWAY today i played a bunch of ultrakill (i am so bad at it but i beat gabriel B) on leniant (one thing that kinda annoys me (even tho i completely get it) is how you can only get the levels in a certain difficult if you beat it on that difficulty or higher. which makes complete sense but is annoying for me in the small way that i use the easier diffculty for the bulk of levels with hoards (hordes?) of enemenies but it means the bossses are stupid easy. takes me a million tries to beat a basic level tht just has platforming in it, and then it takes me like 4/5 tries to beat v2 TwT iont wanna beat all the levels on higher difficulty wahhhh) ive been loving the bonus levels so much (kinda spoilers ahead) the first one had me shitting myself i had to turn gamma to 200% and use the wiki guide to actually beat it lol, i want expecting the "visual novel level" to be so emotionallymoving?? like it ended up being about optimistic nihlism and stuff hyped for the powerwashing level but that means i am going to have to face. the creature . the creature feature. featuring.... the creatures (the manaquins) the way they scuttle OUGH EWEW EW ..no where near there tho ive just started act 2)
ive also been reading a new book i got "the long way tp a small angry planet" and i ahve been enjoying it :) i swear the only genre i can myself to read is like scifi where its people just doing shit in space. also its gotta be queer. ive realised i straight up get so bored with media that only has straight people in it ;u; i was watching Jentry Chau vs the Underworls and near the end i was damn this is just a staight love triangle why is this the majority of the plot and i stopped watching... am i heterophobic guys.. (that or its cuz i saw a clickbit thumbnail saying it was gay which inspiried me to watch it and the dissappointment made me extremely uninterested) anywho im like a quarter of the way through the book (130/like 400 pages) after only a couple days which i am quite proud of considering i like never read . oh ya i was reading it yesterday cuz there was bunch of powercuts rips. kinda wish i checked if a library had it before spending a tenner (not i think its not worth it bur i would like a tenner yknow) it was from a small queer bookshop so i dont mind hacing spent it too much (like i get buyers remorse many times after buying a book froma big a shop lol) im am wondering what the rest is gonna be like cuz yeah its 1/4th through the book and theyre only just about to go on their year long long haul trip. i love people in space just hanging out and theyre trapped. maybe things go wrong (not too many cuz i just dont really like media where its just .characetrs suffering (like i couldnt finish a series of misfortunate events (the series) cuz its like damn these guys life sucks and everyone around them sucks). the book has cool alien gender and they have their own customs (something i dont really get in sci fi (well i understand why its there but yk) is that they're like 'this species of sliens does this, and the human culture is this, and this species does this' (eg the (i forgor but reptile) species is super affectionate and intimate and its super casual, and the main character is like 'that is quite strange when compared to human customs') but like . wouldnt humans even if clasic borders and nationalities were gone have super diviserse customs, like for some people the afformentioned reptile custom is what they like experience . idk i could form more cohesive thoughts about this but it is nearly 5 am good heavens
i really thought this entry was just gonna be "i read a book and played a game :)" i can really yap good lord
omg another ultrakill thing. i have been listening to "the world looks red" on repeat like the last few days and that shit has me tearing up idk why it is likw. so goregous to me poughh the way the like idk violin or whatever sounds so sorrowful. coupled with the manaquin lore omfGGG aaa i need to esxpload this game is so good